How was your 2009? As I look back at mine - moved into a new house, lost a job, got cancer, became a chemo addict, sold the new house - plus all the associated emotional swings caused by all the drama (fears) I am just glad its over.
I haven't had chemo for a month now and the last week has finally resulted in better energy and mind clarity. In case I haven't told you before along with the other side effects of chemo is a "brain fog" which is debilitating when you don't have a lot of brain cells to start with!
The doctor visit this week sets up the new year for us. While the spots on the liver continue to be reduced there is no escaping the reality of a maintenance program from now on. In actuality, my maintenance will be what my 11th treatment was - both avaston (blood vessel starvation of cancer cells and not an actual chemo drug) and 5FU (chemo) will be administered every 2 weeks. The oxal (the really nasty chemo) is over but it has done its damage. I can hardly type due to no feeling in my fingers. The numbness in hands and feet will continue to get worse for awhile then I can expect a gradual improvement. The oxal results in the condition known as neropathy which has caused my foot drop (basically its all nerve damage).
I'll still have the pump on for 2 days after the infusion so every 2 weeks I'll have 3 days where I have to deal with a 6 hour infusion in the hospital and a couple more days of infusion by external pump that I will wear. We'll - so be it. What's the alternative? To me - the goal is to continue to get stronger and have better endurance - that will improve quality of life. Remember - this cancer cannot be cured - only controlled (for a period of time).
What will 2010 bring? For us it means closing on this house, moving back to Elbing, rennovating, remodeling and getting re-instated into the community. All in all its a "praise the Lord" scenario because we'll be able to do this - and there was a period of time in 2009 when I wasn't sure this would ever be a reality due to sickness and no buyer for our house.
I'm not big on New Year's resolutions - but here is what I have learned in 2009 - nothing is more important than relationships (with our Lord and Saviour, wife and family, friends and acquaintances). Thanks to all who have helped us through 2009 with your comments, encouragement and visits. We are blessed with such a strong support (includes prayer) community.
Love to all and a Happy New Year!
Gary & Sandy
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Gary, It is so good to hear your positive attitude and your bright outlook for the future. I pray for continued blessings as you make your move to Elbing, and God's peace and joy with you and your family. God bless you!
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